Songs.... :)

Recently i've been hearing this song..... regularly LOL

Rihanna - Hate on The club
Now this be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?
Stayed at home like a good girl do
But Tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car now, kissing at the bar
Got me crying

[Chorus:]
Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my loveWhoahh

And you can be mad at me all you
ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love is
I Stayed at home like a good girl do
But Tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car now, kissing at the bar
Got me crying

back to [Chorus:]

Now this is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my
would still have usI'd still have my love
We would still have us
But now we're like whoahhhh
Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my loveBut now, now we're like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the clubYou took my loveOh you took my love

~luv it~

I'm tired

Yeap I'm still in my bad mood for my period and sometimes I feel like I don't really want to ........ Never mind....
I just feel a lil bit jealousy with some of my frens... Yeah... I hve a bad feeling that I couldn't get my happily ever after life... Yeap that thing only a fairytale.... But then how I should go on with my life... When nothing I could do for changing it to better.... I don't have enough power to do or maybe I just wish that the world end soon, so I don't hve to do anything....

Gyahahahahhaha- pathetic square.... Geeez....

~imitation of life~

HI there... yeap... today i'm in my lowest mood which means... i really want to vanished from this world... like jumper maybe.... sometimes i'm thinking about how it would feel to erase someone entirely from this world.. not only death, but all about that particular person.... from memories and so on. If God really write everything on it, He could erase it... but people need to adapt which only can be learned by previous action... no memories mean nothing gonna move forward...

Well the reason i've been sensitive about my life is... actually i should be happy rite.. but nobody is happy enough with their life.. there always a thousand reason to deny a happiness.
Okay.. so the reason is.. are.. perhaps... :) hatred toward some ppl.... i've been underestimated about my ability in my field... i'm a tutor but yet one 'biatch' who also a tutor makes a statement about tutor is a fake teacher.. gosh..... what the hell wrong with you... eating her own shit...
and now i've been thinking to become a teacher... but i don't want my reason to be a teacher is because that biatch statement...
the other reason maybe these past days i loss my confidence.. like i've been try so hard but then it's not enough to impress no improvement... i think i'm gonna change my mood tomorrow
i don't like ppl anymore.. and i want to be a mean person... ------ that is only my thought.. lol that's why before all of my thought become real, i want to vanished... could someone erase me??? just erase... forget that i ever lived in this world...

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Reader!!

I just read this blog when i'm googling some movie... it's shinjuku incident.. says in wikipedia that TAKIZAWA HIDEAKI cast on that movie... i wonder which cast is he play... :) anyone can answer this? btw i read this article :

According to J.A. O’Brien, a reading instruction expert, There are essentially 3 different types of readers ( our unique reading styles are influenced by this, according to him) and they are:
Motor Readers - Motor readers are lip movers or vocalizers. Such readers are extremely slow readers as they accompany their reading with various movements of the muscles of articulation. As a result, their speed of reading slows down because they artificially keep their speed down to the rate at which they can pronounce words. Moreover, since there is so much muscular activity involved in their reading, motor readers tire quickly. Motor readers make frequent regressions, for their eyes tend to rush ahead and their voice stays behind. These readers often take the help of their finger to keep a track of their reading and to stay where on the word where there voice is. All this leads to poor comprehension for their mind is as much involved with the mechanics of reading as it is with ideas.
Auditory Readers - Auditory readers "hear" the words they read, but they do not sub-vocalize to themselves. They are very much aware of saying words in their mind, although their speech organs are completely at rest. This means, that they do not actually pronounce each word aloud but only imagine the pronunciation. Auditory readers are mush more skillful and rapid. Auditory reading is faster than motor reading.
Visual Readers - Visual reading is the fastest. Visual readers do not "hear" what they are reading. They simply see a word and understand its meaning. Visual readers understand words and phrases without saying and hearing them. They read with their eyes and mind, not with their mouths or ears.
Credits to Namrata Mathur
So, what type of reader are you?

I hate this part in my houz 2

Geez... Thought this perhaps a hundreds times I feel very annoyed... I'm in my gold cage, I feel safe but then I hve to follow orders, rules and so whatever... SUCKS



saving for future is one of things that I don't like to think about... If I could choose I prefer not having my future... Sorry for ppl who really want to live 4eva, but I absolutely don't agree..... But I can't ending mylife myself for that is a sin to do that. But I have a strong feeling that I hve my bomb.. Whatever the trigger it will soon vanished me from this world lol. Geez.... I'm talkking crap and yes... All ppl surround me is a crap and they are making me feel the crap's of world .........

Why physics is so hard!!

Hyaaaa I hate physics...

Newtonian mechanic things..

It's just another junior high school questions but then this simple machine lever things is sooooo CRAP

extra ordinary strange day.... ?!?!?

Hi there.. wow i guess it's too late now. But then i feel so terrible if i'm not write anything todae

I'm trying to adapt myself to my new netbook. Kind of hard using it but i love it.. i just fell in love and it's pink lol. Hm been talking to my friend about life, God, relationship n so on..

Well this week i can say.. that my job isn't fun for me.. i feel a lil bit tension there. The good news is i got extra long weekend because of the election .... and easter of course...

Talking bout easter... this year perhaps is the first year of my easter without any routine tradition in catholic... for more than 10 years i've been doing that on and on.. sometimes makes me sick... but then... kind of missing it.... but just a little... because somehow i can't manage my believe in all those celebration anymore... yeah... i lost it.. the feeling of easter and christmas. Should i pity myself? perhaps.. but then i should pity the people who're going to church without realising that they're no heart in there... at least i know that i don't like being trap in one tradition without understand what is the meaning.

I hve a lil bit quote here :

"How evil is possible in the world if God is all-good and all-powerful. After all, if God is all-powerful, then the evil in this world is His responsibility and He cannot therefore be all-good. If God is all-good then He cannot be all-powerful, for He allows evil to exist in the world."

Who can answer that??? i can't n i don't want to try to answer that either...

that quote is from shawni book's called The End of Reason... i have the book in my language (indonesian) and i hve to admit it I like to read it again and again.. not for judging God or try not to believe it.. the books.. really good for questioning my faith.... maybe someday i can find the truth, but i rather to keep it like that.. as a mystery....

hoamh so sleepy need to go to bed.........

nite ^^

crying... i"m so sad :((

Hello

I'm in the very super really bad mood

Well I guess I was happier yesterday!

Below is one of my book that I bought a long long time ago, n I still haven't got any chanve to read it.. I hope it's nice :)

Here comes the synopsis :

"Lady Constance Keeble, sister of Lord Ermsworth of Blanding Castle, has both an imperious manner and a valuable diamond necklace. The precarious peace of Blandings is shattered when her necklace become the object of dark plottings, for within the castle lurk some well-connected jewel thieves-among them the Honourable Freddie Threepwood, Lord Emsworth's younger son, who wants the reward money to set up a bookmaking business. Psmith, the elegant socialist, is also after it for his newly married chum Mike. And on patrol with the impossible task of bringing management to Blandings is the efficient Baxter, whose striving for order lead to a memorable encounter with the castle flowerpots......"