Family, wife, mother

Hello.... There...
A bunch of things happens so fast in just a year or so. I still remembered dating days just happened yesterday. Now I am a mother. First-year of marriage is hard. Sometimes we still act like a young couple but other times so many matters that we need to handle. Marriage is never an easy task! I'm not saying it's not enjoyable, fun, or exciting... Believe me, marriage is far far away from the fairytale. That's why Disney rarely made the princess after marriage stories.
I had 4 months of married life before I was preggy.. Being pregnant means more responsibility. I have to eat wisely and takin care of my body. Sometimes I have to deal with the fucked up hormone that played inside. The best part is I got so much attention from colleagues, friends, and family (except for someone). They all showered me with love n encouragement and 9 mths is just a click.
Now the hardest part is takin care a newborn....BELIEVE ME it's so stressful and challenging every single second. You may never know what comes next. For the single parent out there, I give my high salute for your strength. Me myself I'm not a strong woman. I tend to cry when something is not expected to happen. I have no idea whether this is a baby blues syndrome or any other mental illness. But then, in the middle of baby napping time.. I have tons of questions that keep on lingering inside my brAin.....
Am I supposed to be a mother?
Will I be a good mother?
Do I regret?
What kind of life without kids?
How am I supposed to do?
And so on.........

But then I couldn't answer that. Between my sleep time and my uptime, I have to admit that my judgment and thought sometimes irrational.... I have an imbalance hormone that playing trick inside.

I just wish I could see the bright future at the end of this.... That's all I need for now

2015 and here i am

Married... Pregnant then become a mother.... Done that in less than a year!!!!

Misery is not a mystery

Hello there,

Yes. I still survive till 2014. Up and down happened in the past years, but in the end i faced it. Am ia different person now? Hardly to say I'm not. But hey, how long people can change... There isn't any measurement for that rite?

Ive been facing different stories from different sources. Some of them were real, some of them were fiction 😊.  And I've come to a conclusion that no matter how hard you have tried to organize your life in a very mastery neatest plan, in the middle you will find the smallest obstacle that turn your world upside down. Even you are too ashamed to tell the world what makes you change your direction. It was as silly as there's a cockroach in the middle of your way.

Life really teach you lessons. Not the same lessons that you paid at school, these lessons are the one that you need to face it either you want it or not. Reality sucks! But then, after all the lessons somewhere in another years in the future you will realize the most valuable thing in your life is not all the most expensive jewelries in  the world, it is your life experience that matters the most. Do it carefully, you might not turn back the time nor to repeat the same thing over and over again.

lettin Go .....

........... is the hardest thing ever to do! oh my oh my I need to learn this twice am I?. I already know that when there is a meet there will be a goodbye, but what is the good in goodbye ? Well if we already predict the goodbye there will be no miserable thoughts but this is so unexpected hhhhh. This is not the first time... and this won't be the last time because it just like a pattern. one can't simply attach to one thing permanently except for mate matter. But this heart still feel like hhhh i can't really explain. It just HARD TO LET IT GO!

hey! 2012

i really dislike this Dragon lucky year. i think it's the opposite. Many things happened and that is not in happiness category. i really don't know how to overcome all these problems. sometimes i want to quit but at the same time i couldn't.

Can i stay away from God. Should I stay away from Him? Is all God the same? I really didn't knoe what should i do., Why then there are more wars when people start to hold on to something. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I HATE ZYNGA!

Phew okay first of all, i'm not givin any bad comment about ZYNGA :)

I just wanna say that ZYNGA makes me addicted to CastleVille & Hidden Chronicles games. At first I just wanna spent my resting time with something refreshing like games. But then lately they just start to consume my sleeping time. LOL

Keep up the good work ZYNGA... in no time u will have a sleepless human zombie bcoz of the games phewwww